The last week has (unsurprisingly) been better than the few before. We’ve tried to get a sense of normality back for the kids, meeting with friends and talking about what it’s going to be like leaving Bali and going back to England. Happily there have been no earthquakes for a while- Patrick, Esmae and myself are still feeling ‘earthquake sick’ (where you feel phantom earthquakes and get dizzy) but that should get less and less in time, I’ve certainly noticed it getting better and once we are back in England that should help even more. After all the to-ing and fro-ing and stressing about when to fly last month, we decided to take the generally consistent advice of the doctors both in Bali and internationally and wait as long as possible to fly. The upside of this is being able to hopefully leave Bali on a better note than if we had come straight back after the accident which we thought was very important for the kids in particular; the downside is the waiting, our eagerness to get Eira to British medical care and the nervousness about more earthquakes.
Eira is doing very well and although she has found the last 5 weeks very difficult, we are amazed at her graciousness, patience and bravery. The fact that she is here is nothing short of a miracle and I can’t tell you how unbelievable it is that she is walking, let alone anything else. The other day she laughed properly for the first time since the accident, in response to Mum pretending to sword-fight her, and it was the best sound in the world. She has loved being allowed to see her friends again- she missed them so much when she had to stay in the apartment on her own and being able to do normal stuff has definitely helped her mentally. When we get back we will be at the doctor’s straight away to get her referred for sight and hearing tests and anything else that might be necessary. We’ve got questions too about what to expect long term, which the hospital here couldn’t answer. It does seem that head injuries are so individual and difficult to predict that we might not be able to get a straight answer, which we’ll just have to live with and focus on each moment and the positives.
The rest of the family is still in a process with regards to how the whole thing has affected us mentally. It’s easier at the moment to not think or talk about the accident which is why I haven’t been doing daily updates. It’s like our brains just need a bit of space from the horrible-ness. I have written a post about recent changes in mental health, but will sit on it for a while before posting- there needs to be a balance between helping people by sharing relatable experiences, and keeping necessary privacy. I actually don’t know who reads this blog except those who comment and respond and we have been recognised quite a lot here in Bali from the blog and social media accounts, so I’m becoming more aware of protecting our private lives.
We love many aspects of Bali and even more so our friends here, but the feeling is unanimous among the kids that they can’t wait to get back to England. We were joking to ourselves the other day that most people on our journey from Bali to London would be sad as they were leaving their holiday, whereas we will be ecstatic to get on the plane. Mum has gone back to the UK for Nan’s funeral and reported that everything seems weirdly neat and organised- something that sounds very appealing right now! We fly back around mid-September and the next few months at least will be spent in the UK house-sitting for some dear friends; we’ll of course update you first when we know what we’re doing after that. We are really looking forward to getting back into a routine; I’m going to be focusing heavily on creating a great environment for the kids’ homeschooling and readjustment to the UK and really looking forward to sharing with you what a ‘normal’ homeschooling life looks like when we’re not meandering around Asia 🙂
Much love to everyone who is still messaging, thinking about and praying for Eira and our family- we feel extremely privileged to have such a wonderful community and support network both as a family and around the blog. We love you!